Zombieland of the Soul

We are the Zombies of the New Apocalypse

     Yup, that is us.  It dawned on me this morning walking in to work that indeed our ego minds have made us zombies on this home we call Earth.  We could be just as easily been labeled as vampires.  We take perpetually and do not give.  We are attention whores and consuming concubines.  Its all about us making our worlds miniature, small defensive compounds that react to the slightest perceived threat.  We only leave our fetid compounds to consume more and more all the while our soul is rotting from fears, anger and anxiety.

     We rush to entertainment dropping a load of cash instead of spending our money on the sick, homeless and bereaved in our quest to fill a lifeless void.  What are thinking?  Well the answer is easy; me,me,me.  It's all about me.  But really it isn't all about me.  It is about us. We fail to educate our children as parents.  From our barren psyches we hover in our fears to protect them and ourselves when indeed God brought them and us here and will take them when their contract with him is up and no sooner.  David Hawkins MD PhD in is book says there are no accidents or "unplanned illnesses".  These are preplanned arrangements of the soul to learn lessons.  Others have contractually agreed to assist us in both helping perpetuate the act and aiding in the recovery for each souls benefit.

     Indeed we are in an apocalypse of our choice and actions or albeit non-actions. Instead of taking actions within ourselves to make things "better" we sit under the table of the master waiting for crumbs to fall.  Or worse we stride out, self centered demanding what is , we believe, our fair due. We have become victims of our own monkey minds.  Fearful of not having enough or enough of what the others have.  We search with vacant eyes only to consume the next great product that comes along whether it is a youtube video, new Taco Bell creation or movie.

     Now that we have seen ourselves in the mirror what is next?  Maybe the Taoists have the answer.  Lao Tzu says, "Do nothing and nothing gets left undone."  How is this possible?  Below the surface is the act of faith.  Trust is the operative world.  You did not bring yourself into this world and kicking and screaming you WILL be pulled back to the source. Our lives are not our own.  We are observers and then teachers of what we have observed and experienced.  It is our time to Be.  Be compassion, be love, be present.  Like Occam' s razor the simplest explanation is usually the most correct.  Our lot in life we choose.  No one chose it for us.  It is time to realize that.  The old adage to "Bloom where you are planted" in never truer.

Be a fragrant flower to others today and not the hungry ghost of Hades.

    

My oncology patients "Get it"

My oncology patients "get it."  Like so many that think we struggle with mortality our behaviors say we don't.  We are angry, reckless, have bad habits in diet, culture and health.  We live like there is no tomorrow.  Maybe there is a tomorrow and maybe there is not a tomorrow. Or maybe there are thousands of lifetimes of tomorrow. But today, my oncology patients know without a doubt they are going to die.  They have been given the gift of knowlingly facing their mortality they will not have to wait to the last minute or die in their sleep never addressing this fact; we all die.
The ancient Samurai culture taught warriors to not fear death.  This was their first lesson in training. If you are not afraid of death what is there that you cannot attempt to accomplish?  Mind training or mind deconstruction should be our primary objective otherwise we will enter the realm of the old German saying, "Too soon old, too late smart."
Being human has taught us that denial is a positive and powerful tool to avoid fear.  Fear does not go away.  Somatically it enters our bodies where wreaks havoc.  Psychologically fear, stress and denial make our thought processes stumble.  Our emotions become less pure and our fuses grow short, we worry about the insignificant while the significant fade away into dissolution.
We would serve ourselves well at not treating the symptom and instead root out the source of the malady.  We all like to take a pill or have surgery instead of taking a lifetime to prevent the causes of high blood pressure, heart disease, cancer and mental illness. We choose not to have time to care for ourselves and those around us.  Instead we pay for others to do these tasks. Drug companies, healthcare industrial complexes and insurance corporations are happy to take our hard earned money and take away our responsibility. The fallacy is they will take our money but we are always responsible.Responsibility can never be given away.
We must lance the abscess of our illness and clean out the garbage that resides within us.  If we take this lifetime to purify our being we will have generations to come of greater, stronger, purer souls who will have a clearer sight at our evolutionary spiritual pathways.
Where do we start?  How do we face our mortality?  The fact of the matter is that the question itself is a paradox as well as the answer.  We face mortality by being the best we can be as a human today.  We don't improve ourselves tomorrow we face life today.  Like Eckhart Tolle we live in the now. Like Brene' Brown we face vulnerability and accept "I am enough."  Like Shawn Achor we say our 3 gratitudes everyday, meditate, exercise to prepare the way.  If we supplant happiness with fear, is there then a fear of death?  If we live to our best right this moment will it matter what happens if that next timeless moment is death?
How we all choose to answer that question will represent where we are and where we can go.



http://www.brenebrown.com/books/

http://www.ted.com/talks/shawn_achor_the_happy_secret_to_better_work.html

Complacency

What is it that pushes the person to excel?  Excel past what?  Internal apathy, depression, comfort and habit are a few blockades on the way.  What motivation does it take to trigger the real action from inaction to action? Is it discipline?  Is it the desire to grow?  What are we looking for to turn the key of mental stimulus to drive us off the couch of complacency to the track of spiritual growth?

This is a quest of mine.  Where do I seek this eternal flame?  Despite endless hours of meditation I still have not found the key.  But perhaps unlocking what is behind it is more challenging so we all self destruct or divert instead of facing the "Unbearable Lightness of Being."

Many motivational speakers state that we fear the light much more so than the dark.  We fear to take up the Bible's statement that we are "co-creator's with God."  Do we fear our own power or do we fear the consequences of failure or actions that take us out of our comfort zone?

The ego mind has a tendency to thrive off drama and negativity instead of growth and bliss.  Why?  Because if we grow evolutionarily, as is a given, we eventually obliterate the ego's control over life as it sees it.  The ego drags its feet at every occasion not understanding, like cancer, it must die in order for ourselves to truly live.  It isn't so much about willfully progressing as it is unwillfully letting go.  Dr. Hawkins in his book Letting Go makes this clear.

We all must learn to stop defining ourselves as this simply fences in our possibilities.  Living a life of faith takes not bravery or courage but the absence of fear.  The mind/ego revels in some challenges knowing it will get to stroke its heady plumage saying, "Look what I did."  So truly like Lao Tzu said, "True self is no self." , "truly bravery is no bravery".  Another way to think of this is the other Taoist saying, "True virtue is virtue not acting virtuously." Thus, true bravery is bravery not acting brave.

So with non-bravery we step into the light, not knowing where we are going and forgetting where we have been with no illusions as to the future.  Like a Samurai warrior we step over the threshold with, "Life in every breath." When there is doubt, confusion, despair...a simple conscious breath , like Buddha said, "I exist." That in and of itself is validity for a life.